Graham of Anywhere
Graham's blog: politics, poetry, and introspection

I Sleep When I'm Sad

I love being productive. Writing, designing, coding, or otherwise creating. And I love going out and meeting people. Having fun. And generally not wasting my time. I like to do things, as much as I like to laze about and chill out for a while. A mix of all of the above is what I'm all about.

But when I'm sad, when I'm down, all of that seems to grind to a halt. So much so that all I ever wanna do is sleep. And given the chance, that's exactly what I'll do. I sleep when I'm sad. Probably something to do with the fact that when I'm alseep I don't have to think. When I'm asleep I'm not mulling over life and everything that I want to change.

It annoys me. Really it does. I feel like my time is worth so much more than this. I hate the feeling that I'm wasting away hours and days. But it lasts for weeks. Maybe it lasts indefinately. Until something changes, or until I manage to change something. Change my outlook I guess.

I'm uncontent with my job. I resent that I'm grossly underpaid. I resent that I have no money. I'm uncontent living in Stirling. I need to get back to the city. And the crunch, the real admittance - I'm lonley. I am lonely. I'm an independant dude, but even still. As put by Idlewild, "I created myself to be on my own, but I didn't expect to be alone". I wish it didn't affect me. But it does. Maybe that in itself is sad. I donno. I can't forget the past either. I'm stuck.
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N*c*y   I feel that way too. it seems that when i try to gratify myself i never works out and mostly when i feel this way..i sleep the whole day.
`*C*r*s*`   Do you not think you could be suffering from something called hypersomnia? [url=][/url]
G*u*b*g   I don't think so. I want to sleep, but I wouldn't say my body required it. I'm not excessively tired. And I'm not depressed either, just down. Stuck in a rut.
J*c*,   Awwwwwwwwww grum :( *hugs*
m*r*1*   Its happened to me before that when ive had a really stressful day or when ive been down in the dumps i just fall like a leaf to sleep.I think its a kinda natural reaction tbh.

Things will get better dont worry

Keep your chin up
K*t*e*a*   Aw Grum what happened? Why so blue? I'm still here if you want to chat, just give me a call. I want to give you a hug. I hope you're ok.

B*g M*k*   beter then drugs or alcohol, i always sleep and dream the thing i like and belive that someday my dream will cometrue.

Dreams do Cometure.